We all have challenges. None of us with exactly the same ones. I know that mine aren’t unique…so I wanted to share them with you.
First let me tell you that when I was younger, I had this amazingly high metabolism. All through high school I never quite made it to 100 pounds. I know, rough problem to have! I joined the track team, because I love to run, and had to quit because I was losing too much weight. Oh to have that issue now! I was always proud of my body. I was a model and and wasn’t afraid to flaunt what I had. Always wore short shorts…tank tops…short skirts…even up into my late 20’s and early 30’s when I finally met the man of my dreams and got married. I can’t remember exactly but I think that my wedding dress was a size 6 which was big for me!
So why am I telling you this? Because after I got married and started having kids, all of that changed. Naturally my metabolism isn’t what it used to be. I’m 3 days away from being 42 after all. And I have had 3 children. My first challenge was postpartum depression. None of my pregnancies or births were easy. But after almost having died with my second one, my depression was pretty bad. So needless to say…I didn’t worry about losing weight. I started dressing differently. No tank tops unless I was in the house…shorts that covered most of my thighs…longer skirts or pants a lot of the time. The self confidence I once had had quickly disappeared. My walk changed, my posture changed and more importantly, my smile changed. I didn’t realize that last part until recently when I was looking at old pictures. A smile that used to make my eyes light up, no longer did. Sounds sad, doesn’t it?
As most of you know by now, I’m determined to lose weight. I’m determined to be a size 6 again. I want to see my kids grow up…and hopefully see their kids. And not from a wheelchair or a hospital bed!
Now…even though I’ve lost 10 pounds and still have a ways to go, I can already see a difference. My thighs made their first public appearance in about 10 years and my eyes twinkle when I smile again. I’m generally feeling better about myself and generally feeling BETTER!
I’ve been pretty good about not cheating. All bets are off on my birthday and my trip to Toronto next month though!! HAHAHA
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