We all have challenges. None of us with exactly the same ones. I know that mine aren’t unique…so I wanted to share them with you.
First let me tell you that when I was younger, I had this amazingly high metabolism. All through high school I never quite made it to 100 pounds. I know, rough problem to have! I joined the track team, because I love to run, and had to quit because I was losing too much weight. Oh to have that issue now! I was always proud of my body. I was a model and and wasn’t afraid to flaunt what I had. Always wore short shorts…tank tops…short skirts…even up into my late 20’s and early 30’s when I finally met the man of my dreams and got married. I can’t remember exactly but I think that my wedding dress was a size 6 which was big for me!
So why am I telling you this? Because after I got married and started having kids, all of that changed. Naturally my metabolism isn’t what it used to be. I’m 3 days away from being 42 after all. And I have had 3 children. My first challenge was postpartum depression. None of my pregnancies or births were easy. But after almost having died with my second one, my depression was pretty bad. So needless to say…I didn’t worry about losing weight. I started dressing differently. No tank tops unless I was in the house…shorts that covered most of my thighs…longer skirts or pants a lot of the time. The self confidence I once had had quickly disappeared. My walk changed, my posture changed and more importantly, my smile changed. I didn’t realize that last part until recently when I was looking at old pictures. A smile that used to make my eyes light up, no longer did. Sounds sad, doesn’t it?
As most of you know by now, I’m determined to lose weight. I’m determined to be a size 6 again. I want to see my kids grow up…and hopefully see their kids. And not from a wheelchair or a hospital bed!
Now…even though I’ve lost 10 pounds and still have a ways to go, I can already see a difference. My thighs made their first public appearance in about 10 years and my eyes twinkle when I smile again. I’m generally feeling better about myself and generally feeling BETTER!
I’ve been pretty good about not cheating. All bets are off on my birthday and my trip to Toronto next month though!! HAHAHA
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So…Last Thursday was one week since I started this new journey with Medifast!
I have to admit, it’s been harder than I thought. The first couple of days I was super excited and ready to go. I ate my meals every 2 to 3 hours…drank more water than EVER and was happy to do it! I even drastically cut down my Diet Dr. Pepper drinking!! From 5 or 6 a day…to 1!! Then temptation started…cravings…and the feeling alone because the rest of my family is still eating normally and I have to cook it! I declined any invitation from friends to go out because eating at restaurants scared me.
BUT…I kept going…I stuck to it and when I stepped on the scale this past Sunday I had lost 7 pounds! And I went down a back size! Of course this makes me realize that it’s totally worth it, but still it’s difficult right now. I miss a meal here and there and some days I don’t get all of my water in…most but not all.
I did, however, venture out to a restaurant with a friend. Could I have picked a harder place?? The Cheesecake Factory!! But, thankfully I was with an uber supportive friend. There was no bread at our table, we both drank water and she ordered the same salad I did! I don’t think she has any idea how much that meant to me and how much more I love her now! She in no way HAD to do that!! We saw a movie after and I didn’t even get popcorn! Am I proud of myself? YES!
Part of my difficulty is because of how much I love to cook. But I’ve discovered that it’s fun to try to recreate some of my favorite dishes to fit into my lean and green lifestyle! I found a recipe for a buffalo chicken “pizza” – the crust being cauliflower and I LOVE it…so now it will be fun to attempt different toppings on this fantastic crust! Oh and a little Pampered Chef product plug here…have a recipe that calls for grated cauliflower??? The Manual Food Processor to the rescue!!!
I’ve also missed my normal workout routine…I’ve slowed it down a bit to account for the change in my calorie intake. So I’m looking forward to amping it up slightly this week and back to normal next week! Need to lose as much as I can before my vacation in July!!!
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I’ve probably never mentioned this in such a public forum before…but I am very uncomfortable in my own skin. I realize I am not as young as I used to be, and I’ve had 3 children, but I no longer recognize myself. As a matter of fact, my own 5 year old told me how fat I am the other day. Now, while I realize he’s five and probably doesn’t understand exactly what he said and why it hurt my feelings, it only served to voice how I already feel outloud.
To see me in person, you probably would have no idea how insecure and uncomfortable I am. The actress in me knows how to mask it. But here’s the thing. I’m tired of hiding how I really feel. If you’ve ever heard the song Reflections by Christina Aguilera…that’s how I feel. I show a different face to everyone around me…even my husband most days.
So I finally decided it was time to do something about it. It’s time to be the person I used to be. So the tone of my blog will change for a while…from one about cooking…to one about my weight loss journey. Because I want everyone to see that they can do anything they put their mind too! I won’t say that I”ll post every day…but at least every week. Sometimes more. And I’ll share both my good and bad on this journey.
So what am I doing to change things? Well…I’ve tried just about every weight loss thing out there. My chiropractic physician referred me to Medi-Fast…so I took the leap…ordered a month’s worth of food…and I start tomorrow! One of my very best friends is helping me on the work out front…And I love her so much for being such a motivating presence in my life. She’s 20 years younger than me, but we are the same person! And I know that without her, and the support of my incredible husband and friends, this would be much harder than it needs to be.
So…here we go…my journey to be back to a comfortable size six!!! Wish me luck!!